No beg for your friends

Don' beg your friends unless you share what you are doing and how donation can help you in what kind of ways. not only helping is the duty if friend; but also the sincere communication and openness of yourself is your duty, in many ways, by telling your present status  or by getting alternatives they suggest you. Please don't insult your friends for not understanding you: think what you did to be friends with them other than just gossip or claiming yourself. If they had done any fault, it is only meeting you in twitter.

animals to know what a person thinks

even a fly knows that we are thinking of killing it. Cats and dogs, pigs and cows KNOW IT.

Confidence

Let us just be ourselves when we are dealing with what we can't change in 30 minutes. Don't be ashamed of yourself or what is induced from you, or let others laugh at. This is not any kind of truth or creed; you may be wrong, but a better strategy.

I hate korea.

I hate korean internet users' violent post and replies expressed with or without harmful thoughts. I am getting away from reading articles written in korean. It looks like they ARE the korea, and I am not.

If you can't stand something

Only take benefit of it for you and never contribute on its developing, by considering any advising or even badmouth on it.

new work due again

the last seminar preparing the exam - if I don't pass, I can't get the degree - will be held 10 hours later and I didn't do almost nothing for my presentation. this is a bad habit that I use my spare time in other things - to be present a camp that I managed (which was literally FANTASTIC!), writing a proposal to present in 3 months, eat whatever I want, and keeping close with sweetheart before he departs.

and I went to a workshop of writing and reading English papers (esp. scholar ones), and got stressed to hear awkward intonation for 2 hours. I was very curious what would the foreign students thought hearing it, about more than 1/5 of the participants. I might be there today and day after tomorrow too.

so I am short of time to prepare the exam, while there're some small things to do otherwise, which is the most distracting my concentration. some of those are my work and others are not, but bothering if not done right and tight.

that I am a kind of person who is sensitive more than I thought before, is what I am thinking about nowadays. I have been always fought against the matters while there can be other means to deal with them, in more peaceful ways for me and for others. will knowing it and admitting it ease my nerve in any extent? just after the fantastic camp that I got to love every comers I got nervous with 2 different people I met outside. please God, may there be peace, at least inside.

I won a lottery!!

this is not much of its monetary value but the scarcity made premium. I can't belive this sudden fortune, but will enjoy.

when your eyes aim too high

then you must climb up,
till you fall or conquer.
your ground state is here whether you stay or fall.

what can blind me?

those holes of every illusio of every fields interrupts me from being involved somewhat deeper than usual. is it true to all the sociologists? or is it only for I am too skeptical? I know that the better strategy is to get in despite all those pains and irrationalities, but...

what i ate today

1 ramen
1 small milfolliu
1 triangular kimbab
1 grain flour with soya milk
1/2 salad with fried tofu
2 banana
1/2 large popeyes' french fries


ate a lot.

Bourdieu

I prepared to present my peers of Pierre Bourdieu's <Field of Cultural Production>, for we have exam including it in the end of August. it was so difficult to read, translate, and explain it.. that I barely slept today.

"Hermeticism, in this case, perfectly fulfils its function: to utter 'in public' the true nature of the field, and of its mechanisms, is sacrilege par excellence, the unforgivable sin which all the censorships constituting the field seek to repress. these are things that can only be said in such a way that they are not said."

Being an interviewee

just finished the 3rd interview, as an interviewee for my friend's qualitative research in her Ph.D thesis. I usually meet her, and eat something together and talk about me with her for 2~3 hours. I dont' think we are that much 'friends' but talking about myself and incidents around me soothes me by getting the words out of me.

What if you study only 9 subjects?

the probability that you can write all the 6 answers when you studied only 9 subjects is, (9C6*3C2+9C7*3+9C8)/12C8=41/55. You can write 5 answers for certain, and the possibility for u to pass the exam is still very high enough.

how to answer every 6 out of 8 questions on exam

Suppose there is an exam that you can pass if you answer only 6 out of 8 questions correctly. Each question is from one of 12 subjects in total.

what if you don't have much time to study, so you need to minimize your work? Studying your favorite six only? Or top 8 for insurance?

Unfortunately, the only possible way to have your 6 answers fully is to study more than 10 subjects. Too obvious? Sorry.

what does it mean to zoom in someone's face?

As the camera lens technology has been developed, people on TV are taken by cameras installed far away from them(20~30m?) while we can see his/her hairholes of face on screen.

zoomed-out picture with closer shoot and short lens shows us 'center-empathized' pic, and zoomed-in picture with farther shoot and longer lens ('Missile Camera') makes background-empathized pic but with larged image. our usual face with those lens seems bigger and fattened, and that is how the images of TV stars we usually see is made. if you see TV stars in real-life, you will be very astonished that their face is very, very smaller than you think.

with those cameras, we can distort our own visual perception of the world, or celebrity world through cameras and TVs. TV stars shine while their reality starve. what we see and what we really are is far different than it was when we were young.


(this song is not related to this post. or yes?)

to know what is enough

one day my colleague asked me what I eat on 'Jungbok', which is the day when many koreans eat chicken or dogs or anything dead animal for their healthy summer. I was on a low-carb diet that day so I said "I think the best thing is not to eat. even it's only for now, I feel very great with empty stomach and it sets me free."

That's true. we need as much energy as we eat, for metabolism. I came across to think that it is related to the thoughts that we are imperfect or deprived of something, in usual life. it's like that - we can't keep our health without eating meat, or can't keep relationship without disguising ourselves. yes, we can't live without eating and lying, but I think enough is enough. you can live on without those 'much' thing. almost of us are not perfect, but not so imperfect that much.

and no one told me that I will die if I don't eat some amount of meat or eggs( everyone will die someday though,) but everyone is worrying me with my vegeterian or low-carb diet. I appreciate their care about me but you can see, I am living well now, isn't it?

my desk

warmly welcomed, always.
Today this institute where my desk is very noisy to meet the project deadline.

my keywords

here is some of my keywords that i am into:

Economy(not economics), sociology, Institutions, System, Online trade, Giving away, economic anthropology, human development, mathematics and data visualizations for sociology

and these are other keywords that matters me with my life:

Incheon, the Greens(political party), International Jobs/internship for M.A. graduate, Vegan recipe, GB, Taiwan, INFINITE(the idol group).

I am serious. ;)

new blog!

with my old blog(written in my mothertoungue language) i have always felt stiffness, for all those meaningless words, which matters only when you're gonna write the same one again over them.

I made this blog to write my sociology or society related thoughts in english, and to become one blogger who is away from those of her homeland's. Let me have my own shelter from those narrowness and totalism.

Whatever, i welcome all of you unfortunately came across to my site. I wish we can make good friends.